Shann

Yep, I’ll be hearing that song by Jon himself on Dec 16th. My friends and I are going to see Bon Jovi at GM Place in Vancouver. We are so excited. Been listening to them since their debut album came out in 1984, yikes does that age me or what!!! I can remember I was staying over night at my friends house and she just bought the tape, we were hooked at 14 and in love with Jon. He just keeps on getting better with age!!! So we’ll be singing our heads off at the concert, probably lose our voices but it will be sooooo worth it. Oh and we have front row seats, can’t get any better than that!!

So that will be a nice holiday treat for me…My weight isn’t moving but again the inches are. Beginning to mildly dislike the scale again, but I’m really not stressing as much as I thought I would be. I think when I think in terms of months to lose the weight it takes alot of the stress off me. Before I would think in terms of weeks and get all bent out of shape when the scale wasn’t moving fast enough. To each their own for losing I suppose. If it takes me a year or two, so be it. I have come to the conclusion there is more to life than worrying constantly about my damn weight. My friend who had her 2nd child in May is going through so much right now and it puts life into perspective. Her son was just diagnosed as being cerabally blind, this means he can tell when it’s light and dark but can’t see. He had a stroke while in the womb and he’s lucky he is alive. He has had numerous blood transfusions, has a mild form of cerebral palsy and now this. But he is a trooper and my friend has become stronger because of all of it. She doesn’t want anyone to feel sorry for him or treat him different which I can understand because if someone did, he would THINK he was different than other kids and that can be an ostericising feeling. So when it all comes down to it, my weight is important but it’s not the MOST important.

I also want to say “CONGRATULATIONS” to many of my buddies who are so close to their goal and those who have reached it. This site has been a savior to many and Dr Marc sure came up with a gem when he made this. I know it has and still does help me, not only with the weight aspect but for the friendships I have made. Have a wonderful weekend all!

Tonight we made it 10km without stopping, that’s approx 6.25 miles of straight running!!! We were going to stop and walk after the 3 mile mark but we asked each other how we felt and we all agreed to keep going until one of us said to stop. Needless to say we made it…When we finished we cooled down and walked around the block. Our legs were jelly, kind of felt like just getting off a boat but it was exhilerating. I remember cross country running on our farm growing up, the excitement I felt in accomplishing the hills and terrain…all of those feelings came back tonight. That exuberation knowing I can do this and pushing myself out of that comfort zone to do so. I am so proud of myself. I haven’t felt like this for a long time. What an awesome feeling!! So just wanted to share my good news. I keep this up and keep the nutrition on an even keel, by the time the charity run comes along in April I’m going to be right where I want to be regarding my weight. Have a great week everyone!! 

Ok I am so pumped right now. My running/hiking friends and I decided to run the Vancouver Sun Run. It’s a 10 km charity run for the children’s hospital in Vancouver in April. We started “official” training this evening. We mapped out a route that is 10k and decided to see how far we can run it. Well I’m so proud to say we did 5k with no problem. Holy honky dinah!!! I’ve gained a fair bit of weight but I am so pleased I can still get the bod movin’!! So I’m tootin’ my horn here but it’s such a rush, can’t wait to keep going. We decided to go slow, next time we’ll run a little further and so on to get conditioned well. It was a little difficult mentally starting out for all three of us but once we got a mile under us, we got in the “zone” I like to call it!!

I’ve had my ups and downs lately this past year but boy I tell ya, there’s nothing like a good workout to make one feel better. I feel strong again, got the Run to work hard for. Striving for something is always a good thing! So my buddies, just wanted to share my happiness!!! Wishing you all a fantastic weekend!

It’s Thanksgiving long weekend here! Wishing all my Canadian buddies a wonderful weekend! It’s early this year but soooo looking forward to my Mom’s turkey!

 So on to other topics. I went to the dietician yesterday. We made up a plan to get me started again. I have gained almost 20 lbs since the spring. I’m not happy with it but I know how it happened. I have hand to mouth disease, chocolate bar to mouth, donut to mouth, pop to mouth lol! This is the highest my weight has been since I gave birth to my kids. I can only look forward and try not to beat myself up about it, it happened and can’t change the past. So the game plan strategy is like this…I have a calender and I have to put the time I go to bed on it every night…this is because I have to change my sleeping pattern, I stay up too late and don’t get the proper amount of sleep. The next thing I put on the calender is the sweets I eat, I’m trying to go for one treat a week  and only if I REALLY want it, the other one I put on the calender is a star for everytime I workout.

Next month the dietician and I will review the calender to see if I’m doing well and go from there to make more changes or to backtrack and see where I’m not doing the greatest. It’s all small steps that will lead to success. ONLY if I put my mind to it! I let alot of stress get to me this past year and numbed it with food…now I’m paying the price for it but it happened, so it will just take longer to get the weight off.

I will reflect this Thanksgiving for all that I have. Sure I’m heavier, but I have a loving, caring husband, two beautiful kids, a wonderful family who supports me no matter what, great friends including all of you here, and a nice house which with my family makes it a home, oh and skinny ankles lol…love my ankles, they stay skinny no matter how much weight I’ve gained so damn it I’m thankful for them too!!!

I wish you all a happy and fun weekend!!

I have this on Classmates, so I  thought I would put the young Shan on my profile for kicks! Aren’t those glasses from the 80’s just HUGE? I wish my hair would have stayed blonde, sob!!!

We’re leaving for holidays on Sunday. Going to the Kootney’s which are the lower eastern section of British Columbia. My whole family is going so it will be relaxing and lots of fun! I hope your all enjoying the beginning of September. I STILL can’t get the recent blogs …love to all my buddies out there…stay strong and remember to only put calories in your body that it NEEDS! I’ll practice what I preach as well. Happy Friday, have a great weekend all!

Ok so I have blogged about getting back on track, eating healthy, yada yada yada! BUT to do this the ol’ noggin’ has to be in proper form so to speak. I will go for a couple of weeks thinking I’m sailing along and all is good with the weight loss. Well I’ve crashed, hit rock bottom, can’t get any lower.

Many of you know about our truck that was stolen and hubby getting shot at in the process. This is a huge deterent in my weight loss. I haven’t slept properly since it happend last December. I worry constantly, the cortisol is having a freakin’ party with my belly fat…(for those who don’t know what cortisol is, it’s a chemical produced by stress and it lives in fat, preferably around the mid section and literally can stop one’s weight loss.)

So I went to see my Doctor today and we decided for me to see a dietician and a physcologist to get the head back in working order. I have gained over 10 lbs in the last couple of months. I now weigh 175. My doctor said I’m in the obese range, which I knew anyway. Hell my BMI is 30, ugh!

I’ve kidded myself for too long with this. I thought I could fix my thinking myself but I know I can’t. I don’t want another year worrying, missing out on fun events because of my weight, looking in the mirror and hating what I see, I want to feel whole again. I’m not ashamed I need outside help. I should have done it sooner. A couple of my buddies mentioned it to me before and I thought I was still ok and kept trying.

So that’s my story. It’s time to really focus on the inner me before I can get the outer me better. As they say “It all starts from the inside!” I wish you all a great weekend, with lots of love and laughter.

Hi buddies! Sorry I haven’t been on here much but still having problems with this site, grrr! Anyways I thought I would share my thoughts for today.

Years ago when I smoked my Mom said to me (and she is an ex-smoker from years ago) “Why do you want to put poison in your body?” I thought about those words and still do to this day. But the new poison is now food. Why do I put such poor “food” choices in my body when they aren’t doing anything positive or healthy for me? I mean really think about it. All those preservative laden junk foods don’t do anything for us except help the ol’ fat storage.

I know, I know, we still have to have our treats to keep our sanity, well I DO anyway. But to eat it everyday day in and day out we are literally poisoning ourselves. It’s bad enough that our fruits and veggies are sprayed with chemicals but to add to it with chemically preserved foods is just so much worse.

We take pride in our homes and yards, our outside appearance, our families, all exterior…when did we lose focus on the interior of ourselves? Do we think of what junk foods/fast foods are doing to the inside of our bodies? Is taste more important than the health of our heart, arteries, organs? I know it’s physcological, but in today’s society we have to change our thinking. For our health as well as our future generations. In another 100 years the whole population will be obese, scary huh? Now when people hear that they go “No way” …well yes it’s happening right now. Obese is not just by appearance either. People don’t think I’m obese but I am, my BMI and bodyfat % is in the obese range. I just hide it well with the way my weight distibutes on my body.

So those words my Mom said to me many years ago now hold true to the food instead of the cigarettes. I’m trying and succeeding slowly with the new way of thinking. I’m teaching my kids all about nutrition and they know alot already.  So if they have the education now instead of later, they’ll be happier and more healthier adults enjoying life instead of constantly fighting and thinking of their weight.

I wish you all great success, it’s a hard road to go down. Try to think of the foods you choose and what they are going to do for YOU. You all deserve the best so give yourself that too!

Ok, so it’s taking me approx 6 and a half months to get my mind to where it should be regarding this weight loss. I was kidding myself for the longest time thinking I could have my cheat meal on a certain day which of course usually ended up being a whole cheat DAY instead of MEAL. I would sabotoge all me week’s hard effort just through that one day.

So far I have lost 4 lbs this week. No eating at night, no junk foods. NOW the test will be this weekend. It’s our son’s 4th birthday, so obviously there’s going to be cake and ice-cream. I’m already planning ahead. I will have one small slice of cake and… now don’t laugh, but will eat it with my left hand (I’m right handed), this way I will eat it slower and savoir it more…HEY, I’m pulling all the tricks out of the hat to get this weight off. My goal is for mid December. I know it can be done because I have some buddies on here who lost it in this year already.

It’s taken me a long time to get my thinking in order, just like smoking I suppose. When one is ready then it will be done.

Thank-you to all who commented on my previous blog. My Dad is doing well, my daughter is fine, all that really matters when it comes down to it, my family is healthy. I still can’t get the recent blogs, so I just look up buddies and try to respo nd or say Hi…have a wonderful weekend all, stay true to yourselves!

This has been an exhausting and emotional week for myself and my family. First my Dad had to be put into the hospital for a pace maker last Saturday. Finally he got it in yesterday. Had to wait all that time in the hospital because the doctors did surgeries on more critical patients first. My poor Dad couldn’t eat every day til 7 at night in case they could fit him in for surgery. So he is home now, tired but in good spirits. The pace maker is good for 10 years then it needs to be replaced. He was awake during the procedure, said it only took around 30 minutes. Now it’s just mending time. He can’t do anything strenuous or use his left arm for 6 weeks. Thank goodness it all went well. My Mom was a nervous wreck all week. She stayed with her sister so the company was good for her instead of being home alone.

Now my other stressful event. On Tuesday evening the kids were in the living room after dinner. Ty was on the couch watching tv and Lexi was on the loveseat also watching tv. I go into the kitchen and heard a thump and heard Lexi crying. I run into the living room and couldn’t find her. I thought she fell behind the loveseat which is virtually impossible because it’s against the living room window. She fell out the window through the screen. I looked out and saw her on her bum, raced outside and got her, screaming Oh my God the whole way. Alex was in the bathroom and was out by the time I screamed when I first saw her. Brought her in the house and layed her on the floor to asess her. Alex has first aid. She looked to ok but he took her to the doctor anyway.  She is fine, only a scrape on her big toe and a little bruise on her chest. The fall was around 7 feet and on the concrete walkway. Our neighbor saw her fall and said the screen cushined her because it kind of fell half on the side of the house so it acted like a slide.

I of course have not forgiven myself for being so careless and not even thinking of the screen. We had our cat bed/post in front of the window and she likes to sit in it. Of course the window is always closed when she does it. The cat post is short but even with the window sill.  Please learn from my mistake, every year I hear children falling out of windows and now it’s happened to my child. The doctor and even Alex said if the fall is over 10 feet it is usually more serious but still any fall is dangerous. My little peanut is a tough cookie. I on the other hand am not. I can’t forgive myself for this, I put my child in danger without even knowing it. I honestly never even thought of the screen. I’m always careful and watching my kids with other things, like the deck outside, the stairs, in the kitchen, bathroom, everywhere, but I let this one thing not even enter my mind. I keep going “what if” and crying. So please be careful, it only takes a second and those precious children can be harmed from something that could have been prevented.

As for my weight. Everyday I start anew and every night I let the stress get to me and eat. One day I will take control. Until then I just have to go day by day. Hug your loved ones today, and smile at a stranger, it will make their day!