Shann

Yup started here in January ‘07 with the optimism of losing the weight and gliding into 2008 with the carefree attitude of starting another year without the habitual “lose weight” resolution! Hell I’m up 30 lbs since then…Buddy has lost the Slim lol.

Can’t blame anyone or anything (which I inwardly do everyday) instead of being totally level with myself and the addiction I have to JUNK food…don’t get my wrong, I love my veggies, lean meats, fruits, water and all the best nutrition has to offer. Doesn’t do me any good when I’m sabotoging all my efforts with a bag of chips or a king sized chocolate bar.

So why do I do this? Know what the outcome is going to be…is it self medication? Self pity? Seeing a toned woman on tv and thinking “I’ll never get there” and heading to the kitchen for some self gratification to fill the emptiness I have inside me from being a failure at this? Check all of the above. So how do I get out of this thinking? Try to take it day by day, do good for a several days and then slide backwards so fast the scale is smiling it’s evil smile at me again.

Before I wanted to lose 30 lbs, now it’s 60 lbs…need to find that inner strength somewhere deep inside and decide to use it instead of hindering it with negativity…I’m so strong in mostly all other areas of my life, stopped smoking 9 years ago with not even a thought about it, quit cold turkey and never looked back…obviously the Surgeon General is WRONG…Food is more addicting than cigarettes LOL

My thoughts for today, I’ll find my way hopefully soon…

Sending warm thoughts to you for a successful healthy day!

I know, what a title hey? So this post isn’t related to weight loss at all but I thought I would share this with you.

For a long time my clothes especially sweat shirts and towels / faceclothes wouldn’t smell like they were clean after laundering. I used liquid soap and liquid fabric softener but still when the towels got wet they had an almost mildew(y) smell to them. So I switched detergents but still the smell was there. When hiking if it rained my sweatshirt would have a wet dog smell to it, so gross.

I looked online and saw that the detergent I was using caused many of these problems, the soap wouldn’t get rinsed out well enough and that combined with liquid fabric softener was a double whammy. They would stay in the fabric causing a bacteria build up of sorts. I even used vinegar with the soap to help rid the odor. 

I then saw a lady who switched to powder detergent and used the dryer sheets, voila, like magic my clothes and towels are fresh smelling and stay that way even after they get wet. (I had to use a fresh towel after every shower before and that’s alot of towels in a week with 4 of us in the house). Also I read that the liquid fabric softner can cause a build up in the dispenser in the washer and this leads to mildew. This lady also pointed out that most of our moms used the powder variety when we were growing up and the smell of our clothes was so fresh, true.

I now use powder and will stick to it. Many of those liquid varieties are so concentrated that in time they just build up in the fabric, powder rinses out so much better, for me anyway.

Anyhow, thought I would share this little tid-bit of info…Happy Monday buddies….work out, eat clean, stay positive and smile cuz your WORTH IT!!!!!

Hi buddies…Hope spring is in your neck of the woods, it is here. (I mowed my lawn a couple days ago!!!) So far I’ve been on 3 hikes in the last week, yay hiking season is here again. I think out of all the cardio this is my favorite, get to be in nature, see beautiful scenery, gets the blood pumping and an awesome workout for the legs and butt!

BUT I’m still eating at night and sabatoging all my hard work. I don’t do it every night but enough so I’m not dropping the lbs like I should. I eat so well during the day, get in sometimes 2 workouts, and still do this to myself. It’s like I’m in such a state of denial when I’m doing it, don’t know what the hell I’m thinking. Stupid is as stupid does! Is this some deep down physcological thing, am I bored, need some comfort, what the HELL is it? I’m thoroughly disgusted with myself in this, this in the ONLY thing holding me back. During the day I don’t even think about food, I eat to live during the day, but night time comes and I go off the wall. I feel pathetic. How do I dig down deep and get the strength to fight this?

My weight has gone up 15 lbs since last year and thank God I’ve done weights for 12 years so it doesn’t look like I weigh as much as I do but when I see those numbers on the scale I cringe. I don’t want this summer to be a repeat of last summer where I wouldn’t even wear shorts or take the kids to the waterslides. Ok I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading this and if any of you have the same dilema, would love to hear from you!

Naw, I’m happy it’s my birthday tomorrow…start of another year with a fresh new week…although it’s hard to believe I’m going to be 38, where the heck did my 30’s go? But seriously it’s getting better…I’m more secure with myself now, more confident, self-assured,  and the list can go on. I always heard that women get better with age, well I’m LOVING it…everything on the inside is all good, just the outside needs some major tweeking ie: WEIGHT…but I’m working on it, the lbs are going down again after a major hiatus lol !!!

So for my birthday I went to the States yesterday with my friend and we went shopping all day…what great prices. Some things there were more than half priced than here. We were like kids in a candy store :) When I got home my kids were so excited, they had to give me my present early. Hubby took them out shopping and my son (4) and daughter (2) picked out my gift. I opened up the little box and took out a beautiful heart pendent locket. Inside my hubby put all 3 pictures of them. I got teary eyed, it was so sweet and one of the best gifts I have ever gotten for my birthday…what a keepsake this is. The kids were beaming, they were so happy!

 So this birthday has been a wonderful one, even though it’s tomorrow but my weekend couldn’t have been any better. Family and friends are the best.

I wish you all a wonderful new start to the week, be true to yourself, eat those veggies, drink that water and get some sweat happenin’ and those calories will burn baby burn!!!

Hugs to you all!!!

Hi buddies! Hope the New Year is bringing success to the weight loss journey! Well as for me….it’s AWESOME! I have lost 3 lbs so far this week and my weigh in isn’t til Sunday, so hope to get another lb of flub off! I haven’t been able to do any cardio since Wednesday because I hurt my knee running last Sunday. So it’s been all upper body weight training since. I have done weights for years and they bring significant change fast for me, so that’s a huge plus now that my knee is out of commission.

As for my nutrition. It’s been so good and this is the kicker for me. Last night I wanted something to eat so bad but literally had to have a conversation in my head about it. Sure the food would bring me temporary pleasure but I would go backwards so fast and all my work would be wasted. Have done this a thousand times, all my “I’ll start tomorrow” are no more. I will no longer sabatoge my hard work, I will no longer put my body on the backburner..notice how we all do this, we buy face creams, wrinkle creams, make-up, etc… you name it, all to make our neck and upward look good. Forget it, I want to look down and like what I see instead of avoiding it and hiding it with baggy clothes. This has gone on way to long, 3 years now of avoiding my image in the bathroom mirror when I get out of the shower. How sad is that? THIS is my year for change! By fall I will look in that bathroom mirror with a smile and know I have accomplished what I started!

Oh and my biggest trial has been not eating out, eat at home people, make your meals…because it is so easy to say “Oh I’ll order something that’s healthy” but the temptation is sometimes too great! Just my thoughts anyway!

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend!

Happy New Year buddies! Well it’s another New Year for the good ol’ resolutions…My top one is of course to lose this weight and my next resolution is to NOT have a resolution pertaining to weight for 2009…kind of go hand in hand hey?! There have been lots of components with the STALL on my weight loss, first is I’m lazy…yep I said it…I AM LAZY when it comes to bettering (is that a word, don’t care I’ll use it) my body. I’ll do the work for a couple or even a few weeks and then slowly just drop off the nutrition and workout aspect and become a slug. Feel sorry for myself and medicate with food and then I get the JOLT to better myself yet again and round I go…what a freakin’ merry go round….And it’s because I AM LAZY….Don’t get me wrong. I don’t sit on the couch and eat bon bons all day, I keep plenty busy with my kids, errands, household tasks etc, BUT I do use these as an excuse for not getting my butt in gear! 

I watched the new Biggest Loser tonight and they took the contestants to a morgue…It was a huge wake-up call for them and I was crying just watching it…one gentleman said he was the only one to blame and all he could think of while he was there was his wife and child…how they would be torn apart if he were to be laying there from his unhealthy habits…Kind of hits home doesn’t it? I AM in charge of me, no one else is, I can’t keep trying to foot the blame onto something else for my habits. I just hope I can accomplish this (I would rather go through the pain of child birth than try to lose weight and trust me, my son was 9 lbs 4 oz and over 21 hours of hard labour lol !)…maybe it’s because I know it can’t be done overnight, it isn’t a 6 month “diet”, but a whole life style change. I know how hard it’s going to be to detox myself off certain foods, and the cravings are going to be so strong and so hard to resist. I KNOW it involves alot of hard work, mentally and physically…3 years ago I was there, had a healthy body, felt like a million bucks, had so much confidence and I was smiling at the world and it was smiling back…Want that feeling back again, it’s priceless.

Hello all, Merry Christmas! We went to the Bon Jovi concert last night. Took a limo into the city, had dinner and then the concert. Great time…we had excellent seats, 30 feet away from the band so the view I must say was fantastic, and they put on a great show.

While I was there I was thinking to myself “why haven’t I been doing more of this?” I was watching Jon on stage and he is 8 years older than me and just rockin’ it…I guess sometimes I let go of my inner youth and last night I found it again. Weird how thousands of sceaming people and a rock band can bring to light things. So I must say I have to do more things like that MORE often, get wild, have fun, scream my head off and let my hair down…and boy did we ever!!! Suprised I have a voice today.

My weight is at a standstill which is fine as I am really trying to be cautious over the holidays, so no gain is a good thing. It’s almost been a year since I have signed onto BuddySlim, can’t say it was a successful year in weight loss but it was still a damn good year…But I do know I don’t want to start 2009 with the New Year’s resolution of losing weight, I don’t want those words in my head at all…so guess 2008 will have to be my year to do it…so far I’m off to good start mentally speaking, eating ok but got to get back in the workout mode.

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas, and lots of love, laughter and joy for the New Year…warm hugs and thoughts being sent your way….Luv ya

Shannon

Just me again…I have a feeling some of you may think from my previous post that I have ONLY 12 lbs to go to have lost the weight. No, that is just a goal for January…I have ALOT to go still! Just had to clarify that…I’m still chugging along “woo woo!”

Hello all! So I must say I am doing really well regarding the weight loss again… I told my dietician I would lose 16 lbs by Jan 2, it’s now down to 12 lbs, rolling along quite nicely. I’ve been so diligent about not eating at night, this is a huge accomplishment for me. The thing is I get myself so tired from the day that I plunk myself on the couch after the kids are in bed and it’s too hard to get off to go get a snack hee hee!! I will get to my goal weight by June, this I am promising to myself. Oh and those pictures I got taken, those are a HUGE mental boost to lose the lbs, try it…it works!! When I want something not the greatest for me to eat, I take a gander at those pictures and boy does it damper those cravings!!

So now to the grizzly…My hubby has been away in another part of the province hunting. He was sitting up in the mountains watching some deer and kept hearing something behind him…so he would look and see nothing. Then he heard some breathing and turned and there was a huge grizzly 10 feet from him. He jumped up and shot at him instantly and the bear took off. He said it was massive,  the belly was on the ground and he must have been 5 feet at the shoulder. I know these animals can be 1000 lbs before going into hibernation, especially the males. My husband was very lucky…this will be a story told for many moons I’m sure. I thank GOD he’s ok. He told it was like out of a movie, it was all slow motion and yet it happened so fast. I would have fainted right then and there.

So that’s my story for today…have a wonderful weekend buddies, hugs…S

Hello buddies…hope your all well. Again I apologize for not being on here very much. Life is busy, and with the time change seems even busier for some reason. So here’s the scoop…You saw my title and may be wondering what that means, I will tell you. I got my hubby to take some pictures of me in my bra and undies…get your mind out of the gutter now, this is for visual motivation people!!! He took a front view, side view and rear view of moi.

Again from my title, “YIKES!” came to mind when I saw the pics. I seriously don’t feel the way I look, I mean I thought I looked better than that but pictures don’t lie…can’t say the digital camera adds ten pounds, wish I could but I’d be lying, it’s more lol !!!So I had doubles made and on them I traced how I want my body to be, compared the two sets and what a difference.

I told my dietician what I did and she said if it works and helps….go for it. Ok, now to my dietician. She has shown me what a portion is on some foods I eat. For instance, pasta. I am only to eat HALF a cup of cooked pasta, can load the tomatoe sauce on and the rest of the plate is to be veggies. At night when my munchies attack to have a mint, brush my teeth or have some liquid (I’ve been drinking low calorie hot chocolate and it curbs my taste for sweets). This works for me so well because if I do start to eat, it can get ugggggly! And here’s the kicker for me. I have flax oil in my shakes, have had it for years. She said don’t bother. It’s good for people with high blood pressure which I already knew because it keeps the arteries all nice and clean but for someone with no heart conditions, don’t bother. I’m to have salmon for my omega fats instead. It has the highest quality omega’s. She said all that oil is just adding calories I don’t need. Go figure! I’m eating the good quality canned salmon, easier than buying fresh and it’s just the same for the good fats.

So anyhoo, if you need some motivation and just can’t seem to get it…Get some pictures of your body with your scivvies on…I was asking my hubby where I should put them up so I can see them often, we started joking around that I would put them on the fridge and we would get company one day…There I would be running to the kitchen in slow motion and yelling “NOOOOOOOOO” while diving for the fridge door!

Wish you all a fantastic Friday and a great weekend! Luv ya!!