Shann

Happy New Year buddies! Well it’s another New Year for the good ol’ resolutions…My top one is of course to lose this weight and my next resolution is to NOT have a resolution pertaining to weight for 2009…kind of go hand in hand hey?! There have been lots of components with the STALL on my weight loss, first is I’m lazy…yep I said it…I AM LAZY when it comes to bettering (is that a word, don’t care I’ll use it) my body. I’ll do the work for a couple or even a few weeks and then slowly just drop off the nutrition and workout aspect and become a slug. Feel sorry for myself and medicate with food and then I get the JOLT to better myself yet again and round I go…what a freakin’ merry go round….And it’s because I AM LAZY….Don’t get me wrong. I don’t sit on the couch and eat bon bons all day, I keep plenty busy with my kids, errands, household tasks etc, BUT I do use these as an excuse for not getting my butt in gear! 

I watched the new Biggest Loser tonight and they took the contestants to a morgue…It was a huge wake-up call for them and I was crying just watching it…one gentleman said he was the only one to blame and all he could think of while he was there was his wife and child…how they would be torn apart if he were to be laying there from his unhealthy habits…Kind of hits home doesn’t it? I AM in charge of me, no one else is, I can’t keep trying to foot the blame onto something else for my habits. I just hope I can accomplish this (I would rather go through the pain of child birth than try to lose weight and trust me, my son was 9 lbs 4 oz and over 21 hours of hard labour lol !)…maybe it’s because I know it can’t be done overnight, it isn’t a 6 month “diet”, but a whole life style change. I know how hard it’s going to be to detox myself off certain foods, and the cravings are going to be so strong and so hard to resist. I KNOW it involves alot of hard work, mentally and physically…3 years ago I was there, had a healthy body, felt like a million bucks, had so much confidence and I was smiling at the world and it was smiling back…Want that feeling back again, it’s priceless.